My mom and I (as her personal caregiver) are alone.
Sure there are friends nearby who thankfully help at our fringe (e.g. I received an anonymous gift card today with my appreciation).
But I am left to solely care for her on a very limited budget (with no savings), while she flows into late-stage Alzheimer’s disease.
One week into this month, her change was dramatic enough, so I now have to regularly help her navigate what are traditionally private matters.
It was a bit of a brutal transition, as I have no experience (including having no children to provide similar experience).
But overall, everything has gone, and continues to go, smoothly enough.
I am adapting as healthily as I can.
That is why I have not posted much recently, but that must be properly remedied.
I am building my entire life around my mom, during her last moments.
As terrifying as it is, my only sensible path is to become a successful online artist, while she spends ample time sleeping nearby.
While I am thankful for all of the support you provide us, as you can see, my online presence is nowhere near mature enough yet. We are nicely sprouting here, and I will give my ethical best for a healthy growth into a tree-like expression to provide healing through laughter and stability assistance, during these harshly difficult global times.
There is too much more to say here, so with respect to your attention, I instead wrap this up with the following.
A solid batch of new spacemixed music is coming here, and my playful live stream is going live (initially at my YouTube channel) in the coming days to give people my unique flavor of artistic hangout.
There is a complicated reason as to why I am not streaming at my Twitch channel yet, but suffice it to say, when I can upgrade my OS and applications, that will promptly change — especially since I have made some good friends there, and look forward to flipping the view to interact with them.
I am truly looking forward to meeting you there, upon your interest. Likely windows of time will be 6-9pm (eastern time), although do not be surprised if I add a 9:30-11:30am stream sometimes.
Be forewarned, while I am majorly meditative and yogic, my humanity and artistry goes to psychedelic and offbeat places often for humorous amusement. Always friendly, but conversation might get a little (inclusively weirdly) dirty.
I am an honest freak (or reasonably responsibly balanced "misfit", if you prefer) of an artist working and resting to best carefully contribute towards helping society. Too many people abuse reasoning (e.g. 'partial truth = whole truth' scam), while I exercise reason to explore and express whole truth without any conflict-of-interest -- all within a sometimes offbeat style of psychedelic artistry.
Spirit Wave Journal 
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