This Thursday includes the yearly posting of my Veterans’ Day essay.
Emphasis regarding the international reach of that post is fitting here.
Yearly posts typically contain minor revisions (e.g. basic word changes, maybe an added paragraph, and so on).
Each year, as I spend time refining each piece, I find something cringeworthy, which begs the question…
Why did I miss that needed change earlier?
Moreover, what changes am I missing this time around?
Communication (like life) includes imperfections.
That is why I detest interviews. While there is preparation time to predict the questions, ultimately each answer is expressed at least somewhat in rough draft form, while being treated as a perfectly polished form worthy of inclusively brutally harsh public criticism. Moreover, questions can be designed to abusively railroad the respondent into a poor response, simply due to the inability to quickly properly answer a preparedly complex question.
That is also why I reject the conventional wisdom that truth is automatically in the form of whatever someone blurts out. The idea of that wisdom is the facade is involuntarily dropped, while likely emotionally blurting out the truth. However, properly expressing how one feels (and/or such) is challenging, so misunderstanding is facilitated. Strongly emotionally expressing something toughens that challenge, because powerful emotions can easily override sensible word selection.
What I also find cringeworthy is the dictionary in my Firefox browser. There have been countless times that require me to add fairly common words to that dictionary — including the words cringeworthy, preparedly, and revisionary. Who at Mozilla made this dictionary? They have plenty of money, at least due to their deal with Google. Please allocate some reasonable resources towards a respectably complete dictionary for maturely crying out loud.
Suffice it to say, I will never actually finish any of these essays, which is amusingly somewhat interesting. Perhaps with each year, I learn more, so my perspective is always changing — allowing me to catch a mistake that I previously could not.
Maybe mistakes are merely relative within a reality that always remains perfectly stable — a suitable point to meditate upon.
If I do merely post the same essay in consecutive years, it is probably due to a need to focus my attention elsewhere, as there is always way too many things to do, as a physical part of the 14 billion year old explosion called the observable universe.
I am an honest freak (or reasonably responsibly balanced "misfit", if you prefer) of an artist working and resting to best carefully contribute towards helping society. Too many people abuse reasoning (e.g. 'partial truth = whole truth' scam), while I exercise reason to explore and express whole truth without any conflict-of-interest -- all within a sometimes offbeat style of psychedelic artistry.
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